Windows and Doors (a poem)

Windows and Doors

Written August 24th, 2011

As time passes by

A pool of reflections

Swells behind my eyes

The shimmering lights on the water

They are only windows of the past

And hard as I may try

I can never change them to doors

Visions of you dance in my head

Late at night, with all this time between us

I cannot sleep, for thoughts of you, it seems,

Are more appealing than dreams

I see soft careful kisses

Hold back; take your time

You never were concerned with moving too fast

I see joined hands

As we lie side by side in the grass

Just to watch clouds meander by

And to talk and smile and laugh

To look at each other and know

That we're falling in love

With only intuition; no math

And to think

I had this

And I let it pass

I let it pass

I tossed you into the wind

Setting you free

Before you ever grew wings

Now, I'm ignorant enough to hope

You'll come back to me

Do you see me

Pressed against the glass?

Watching memories

Of our deep past

Do you see me

Pounding against the glass?

Wishing this window were a door

So that I could defy time

And remake the past

But the future is full of doors

If luck wins out maybe you'll open one for me

And I'll re-enter your secret heart

And re-write my name on its cardiac walls

Right where it's meant to be

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Written for someone I gave up in pursuit of greener grass... turns out the grass wasn't much greener on the other side. I've never stopped feeling guilty for hurting you. And I've never stopped feeling incredibly stupid for ending something so good.

Love,

Faith