Necklace (a poem)

Necklace

written March 14th, 2011

There is a necklace

Resting on my collarbone

You may think nothing of it

This little chip of seaglass

Dangling on a silver chain

But if you look closer

Every time I pass

You'll see my choice in jewelry remains the same

There are no diamonds

No sparkling gem

Lighting up this simple pendant

So why then

Is it so special

It's the meaning on which its worth is dependant

Inside that little shard of smooth glass

Is that soul, the essence, of something beautiful

A miracle

It appears dull and faded

But to me it shines

With more beauty and more light

Than any gem, or the full moon at night

Inside it holds the memory

Of love, pure and true

Of all those gentle bygone hours

With someone special I knew

When I touch it with my fingertip

Grazing its smooth weathered surface

I am reminded

Of each poetic moment

From those two years

Every kiss

The light in his eyes

Every word he whispered in my ears

We made the world jealous

Him and I

Loving each other more than life

More than the blue sky

I would have done anything for him

Without asking why

He was the first to explore

The unknown depths of my heart

In the end

Life tore us apart

In the worst possible way

he lied to me, I was left alone

Empty and betrayed

But this necklace he gave me

This pendant of glass kissed by the sea

Stays here over my heart, unmoving

I wear it to remember

All of our good times

Before our great fall

A simple reminder

That our love was real, tangible

At least for a while

It helps me see that this ugly world

Can be beautiful underneath the surface

Beneath the hatred and malice

He has left me here

Cold and empty

Handicapped in my ability to trust

I miss the love, its touch

And dread it at the same time

But this necklace, this token

Keeps my hope, I have to hold on to it, I must

To the day where I'll be healed

The rebirth of my love, my trust

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Just because a relationship ended badly, doesn't mean you shouldn't remember the good times. Don't regret your past, just learn from it, and pave a better road for the future.

I don't wear this necklace because I'm stuck on him. I wear it to remember how true and amazing our love was, a reminder that love exists even on the days where it feels like the world is only full of hate. I hope someday I can trust again. I hope the memories in this necklace and its meaning help me on my way.

Thanks for reading.

-Ousma (Faith)