"In the end, it's not going to matter how many breaths you took, but how many moments took your breath away." -Shing Xiong *** "Do not go where the path may lead; instead where there is no path and leave a trail." -Ralph Waldo Emerson *** "Truly great friends are hard to find, difficult to leave, and impossible to forget." -G. Randolf *** "We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us." -E.M. Forster *** "Imagnination is more important than knowledge. Knowledge is limited, imagination encircles the world." -Albert Einstein *** Defintion of Suburbia: A place where they cut down trees and name streets after them. -(Unknown, found on sticker) :p *** "A lie goes halfway around the world before the truth has a chance to get its pants on." -Winston Churchill***"Love is the irresistible desire to be desired irresistibly." -Louis Ginsberg ***"All journeys have secret destinations of which the traveler is unaware." -Martin Buber

Saturday, February 4, 2012

(Raise Your Voice) Things I Never Had (a poem, dedication)

Raise Your Voice
Things I Never Had
Written  February 4th, 2012
I dream of things I never had
On this freezing lonely night
As I cling to this life so fleeting and sad
Without these dreams I’d have no will to fight
And I’d be stiff and cold by morning light

I dream of fields, sprawling and green
Soft plumes of grass beneath weary, cracked foot pads
Forests and skies that stretch to eternities unseen
A family full of love, always glad
Each night a big warm meal to be had

I’ll make it through each long, painful day
On a stomach with no food and a heart with no love
On shaky legs and a mind that’s begun to decay
I’ll survive till dusk touches the grey sky above
So I can sleep and briefly enjoy the things I’ve been dreaming of

I dreamt of things I never had
This night sky ablaze with a million stars overhead
This field full of fireflies like lanterns gone mad
This girl beside me, who will always love me, she said
And waiting inside, that warm, soft, inviting bed

This girl, my companion, she calls me by name
Kisses that spot on my head, reminding me her love is there
Even though from those torturous years, I’m physically lame,
She hugs me goodnight and holds me when I’m scared
There’s never a day where I doubt her heart is full of care

I spend hours resting on this warped porch stair
Gazing out over all that is mine
If I died this very moment, I’d die happy and without a care
I often wonder how I stumbled into this life so fine
This family and haven where I’ll spend the remainder of my time

Sometimes I remember those dark hopeless days
All the nights when I dreamt of the things I have

I wrote this poem for my dog, Buddy. We picked him up from a rescue shelter a few years ago, to give his old, sick self a nice retirement home. His last owner did not take care of him. He actually has what we call his "shark fin", a sharp protrusion on the back of his head that is a result from being so malnourished that the muscles around his head degraded so that the bone sticks out. It's less noticeable now than it was when we first got him. But we fixed him up and got him back on his feet, and he now lives comfortably with us, his loving family. His favorite pass time is sitting on the porch step and gazing out into his big yard, and the field and forest beyond the yard fence. I was watching him on that step today and the idea for this poem came to my head. I often wondered if he thinks about his old life when he sits on that step, knowing that he can never take what he has now for granted. 
After I finished writing I decided that this would make a good addition to my ongoing "Raise Your Voice" collection, because the poem is a story of animal abuse, a story that has a happy ending. Not all animals are like Buddy though; they don't all get that happy ending. So before you go out and buy that cute, perfect little puppy from the store, I ask you to consider stopping at your local shelter instead. Most of the dogs I've ever owned are from shelters, and they're some of the best damn dogs in the whole world... at least I think so.